Today is the day I head over the pond! You would think I
would feel more prepared, especially with this dragged out transition in my
life. I’m still not fully packed, and instead I’m writing in this blog.
A couple weeks ago I was reminiscing about my last year of
living in London, and I wrote something that I never ended up posting for some
reason... in any case, here it is:
“I can remember thinking to myself within my first week in London, 'why does
everyone keep asking me if I'm alright?' It almost gave me a complex. Do these
people know something about me? Are they worried I'm not handling London very
well?
Over time I eventually started saying it myself and coming up with
appropriate responses, all of them beginning with "Ya good thanks!"
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Something I've noticed about traveling and I suppose it's the same with most things in life, is that I really cherish a place right before a transition. For example, yesterday I went for a walk outside (here in Ottawa) and it was beautiful and sunny, the birds were singing, people walking by would smile and say hello... and it felt good. It felt more than good- it felt almost euphoric. Canada will always be my home.
Once I get to London though, everything is going to feel incredibly exciting and overwhelming in a "this is the best city in the world" kind of way. The trick that I want to figure out is how to maintain these feelings about any place I happen to be in the world. Not just that, I want to capture this feeling about everything in life because it's true what "they" say: everyday really is a gift.
I've recently had some reality checks that were a blessing, because I started to get myself down about really trivial stuff. They were "first world problems" as it turns out. Things like minor back problems, confusion with work related stuff, misplacing important documents... oh my god I'm so privileged, WAKE UP LAUREN!
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I'm so glad to hear you get to go back today! Have a safe flight, and have lots of adventures so I can live vicariously through you :) You're inspiring me to finally actually go live in all those countries I've said I'd love to live in one day. Kick London's ass, and know that I am back here feeling immensely jealous of you.
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